What is truth? How many ways can you spin truth? Why is it we see only what we want to see? Hooboy! I could waste my time and yours and blog on that for days. But the short of it: Truth is…whatever you want it to be. 

So you say, “But what about facts?” 

Okay. Fact: I’m a woman. Fact: I have green eyes, a mouth, nose, ears, etc. But honestly, just about everything else about me will vary according to the viewer. Perspective is everything. Different people throughout my life would say I’m a musician. Others remember me as an interior decorator or designer. Some would say I’m kind. But others have said I’m arrogant. All would say I’m very creative. But it’s only their perspective in looking at a small snippet of my life. 

Am I sick and tired of talking and thinking about what TRUTH is? YES! This world is eaten up with the crazy and ridiculous (from my perspective). Many of these people are simply louder than most of us. So why on earth would we take a backseat to the noise that sounds like the screeching of a blackboard subjected to chalk in the hand of yet another nutcase? They’re just noise! But like all bullies, they put the fear in us, that’s why. 

Fear permeates and drives this world right now. And whatever we focus on becomes the basis for making almost every decision from the ordinary to the extra-ordinary. From our parents placing their fears on us, to the real fear of dying by gun violence. So what’s the answer? Let’s talk about power.

I have the ability, available to all who choose to develop it, to connect with a source of wisdom and information that exists in another realm. Call it what you will. Doesn’t matter to me. I know who I communicate with.

So today after becoming sick and tired of being sick and tired, I tuned in (my meditative way of protecting myself and preparing to receive wisdom and discernment) and asked my source a few questions. The same questions I’ve been asking for a very long time. Here is the conversation I had with my source.

ME: Why am I sick? How can I become healthy? Can I write about something that will clean/clear my energy?

SOURCE: Your solar plexus (chakra) is where most of your back pain shows up. This is a clue. You gave away your power over and over and have been constantly trying to get it back. You created a weakness in the muscles in that area. This is not who you are. But this is who you became. And with each fight as you define it, you lost more power. It was gradually siphoned out of you. Power is not a human attribute, but that of the soul. It can become depleted to the point of no return, which is what you have chosen, because of the paths that you have chosen. 

ME: How do I fix it?

SOURCE: Start again from this point forward. (Forget the past)

ME: Who am I?

SOURCE: You are powerful beyond imagining.

ME: Details please…

SOURCE: I see robes, like those worn by a ruler. Glittering with gold. Why does this matter? This is to give you an image that you can call on in times of weakness. You have been a ruler. You have been the wife of a king, but a ruler in your own right. Whatever you’re experiencing now is not representative of your power.

ME: What does power really mean in that context?

ME: What is a mistake?

SOURCE: Simply a missed opportunity to advance. What you call a rabbit trail. Your intuition is finely tuned, but your mind chatter drowns out what you know to be true, just, and correct. A very common human trait.

ME: So this is what, or the reality, that I’m focusing on. Can I shift my focus to a healthier experience?

SOURCE: Yes. But define what is healthy for you.

ME: Health: the ability to not be afraid to live life to the fullest. Fear that my health will get even worse has me tied up, afraid to imagine anything different. Because then I’ll have to more fully participate in society. I generally don’t do well around people. Too much energy flying around. Overwhelming.

SOURCE: So writing is your vehicle to participate without participating. But can you connect? Humans need human interaction. So far you’ve only dipped your toe in the water. Time to jump in. 

ME: So how do I develop a way to get my words out there?

SOURCE: It’s coming.

ME: When?

SOURCE: When you speak your truth. Stop being the diplomat. Write exactly what you want to say. There’s plenty more to say. This message is not over. You’ve hidden away most of your life. Alcohol provided cover for too long. Defining yourself with some sort of misdiagnosed mental disorder was cover, a shield. Now illness is your cover.

ME: Okay. I get it. What’s my next move?

SOURCE: Post this conversation.

So I did.